When the writing goes to hell

When the writing goes to hell

Do you remember A Shift in the Air? More specifically, do you remember the hell I went through with A Shift in the Air? I wrote that book three times. Three times.

I released that book on June 22, 2015. I haven’t released a book since. At least not a full-length novel. Alone. (There was that little anthology, Snowflakes and Steamy Nights.)

This is the longest I’ve gone without releasing a book since I started publishing. I’ve gone all twitchy over the delays. Now, let me be clear. I made the decision after A Shift in the Air not to release another book before it was ready. And by ready, I mean the very best work that I’m capable of doing. With the best editing. And the best formatting. And the best cover.

In short, I’ve made the commitment to quality over frequency. I don’t regret this. But that doesn’t mean I don’t have bad days like today.

Revelations in Blood is in editing. It’s been in editing before. Yes, that’s right. I’ve written that book twice now. And my editor just emailed me and told me that I still had major substantive work to do on the story. So much work that she thinks I might add a full 40,000 words to the story by the time I’m through.

Now, I have no idea if I’ll agree with her once I get the book back. Maybe I won’t add that much. But I trust my editors (I have two). So when Clare says that I need to make major substantive changes, she’s probably right.

And I’m pissed. Not at her. I trust her. That’s why I pay her. When Ally told me I needed to rewrite Macchiatos for Midnight (formerly Moonlight and Macchiatos), I didn’t get mad at her either. No. I’m mad at myself. When did I forget how to write? When did this career I love become so hard? Where did I go wrong? And more importantly, how can I fix this? I really want to be able to write a book without rewriting it two more times. I want to be able to get on a more regular publishing schedule. I want to love what I do again. I want to get my confidence back.

I don’t have any answers right now. I know I’m learning. I know I’m producing better books than I did when I started. I’m sure part of my problem is that when you reach a level where you’re consistently producing quality writing (if not a quality story all the time), you have to work harder to level up.

But I’m so very discouraged.


  • Cyndi Posted January 18, 2016 9:29 am

    Facing my own marked-up pages from my publisher now – and many of the same questions and concerns.

    But we keep writing, striving for that quality output.


  • jayne Posted February 19, 2016 10:46 pm

    You didn’t forget how to write. You’re learning how to write better. And that is something to be proud of.

  • Wendy stolte. Posted February 25, 2016 10:09 am

    Where is a shift in the earth’??

    • Patricia D. Eddy Posted March 1, 2016 11:47 am

      Wendy, I’ve had some pretty major health problems this past year, and that’s delayed everything. I’m still writing, but much, much slower. Current estimated date for A Shift in the Earth is July or August 2016.

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